something crazy ?

at the first go in this college ,
from the first assignment,
until now it really have a big changed .

changed some of my mind (hmm i think so?)
changed more confidence
but i think my skill still very poor... especially design by using com ..
even that i still appreciate for chosen this college and this course
i learn many .. and i really love it

and yesterday i sleep at 5am .. wake up on 6am.. and only eat 6 piece bread for whole day @@
really never think before i will crazy with it...
always saw them do until 3 , 4 , 5 ( at the first some assignment )
in my mind .. " do them crazy ?? how can them sleep so few hours only because of assignment?! "
and today i am the most crazy in this time...
i not never try before for dint sleep at night...
just never try because of assignment or homework
every year famine 30 i dint sleep but it really tired when a bored moment ... even in concert , most of us are enjoying sleeping  time.. but sure we still crazy for some singer la


and hear teacher said many thing... and my friend also... them chit chat ...
but i dint have join... just hear it from far...
after heard i really some feel wanna cry..
we all sure have family problem.. just different with problem..
for me ..she really a nice girl.. she care about others .. anything she just hide for family ..
and i was jealousy with her relation between bro sis..
i dont know how come will our relation so far( i think) .. but mayb for others our relation is nice ? ..





and you .. i dont know how come you become like this .. or mayb as someone said you have your own reason ..
but pls dont play love can? i really hate it .. do you know you may cause someone fall on you , but if you just play .. it hurt others

if you want play
can dont let me see ? ..

你说了我想说的@@。。
真的很不爽...
怎么我和你总是有着相同的..
这次..
不同的是不爽着不同的人?
不同的是..你在场,而我不是..
也不知道为什么会这样...

:) ?

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and anything :)
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i optimistic about you two :)

famine 30

做了最大的決定...但..是错的....
一整天都在想..我是不是太冲动...我是不是做错了...
...
没人可让我述说...
他..不可能回应吧..如果给他知道..肯定不相信...
vg...他不可能再理会这些吧..不然就给我气死..
gor..他一整天忙着..还有大嫂在...
ys ... 其实他是最好的选择...但不知如何开口...
cs ... 就不用再说了...


最后还是找了ah gor...
跟他说了后...就忍不住..又笑又流泪哭..
不知道为什么..我真的觉得自己很可笑...
他听后也傻了...但没特别得出奇..
我真的开始疯狂的哭了...
dai lou 其实只是在对面...他看着我向傻婆一样不定还闹哭...
还有他们两个都有经过...但应该都没发现吧...?

kevin 向我方向走来...我就去洗了脸..逃避他...
最后还是碰见了那个人..说..明天再谈..
明天一定要坚决拒绝....!

..好吧..真的感觉到大嫂吃醋了...对不起...我不是有意的...
只是..我真的找不到任何人..

暂时放下这个问题了...
今天..我真的觉得..我好像远离他们很多.. 好像都不容许我插进他们了...
反而...他们跟她们更要好...我都比不上了吧....
是我出现了问题?..我已经尽力爱谈了...不是这样吗???

今天被人吃醋...而我也吃起醋来...
他跟他的感情好好... 也许以前没有将多女性朋友? 只看过我们的经历...
我真的不知道怎么说... 但...就是酸酸的感觉.... 看见你吃他吃过的面包.. 看见他对你发桥..还有你们的关系......

你问我在发呆什么...
想很多东西吧....
今年还是哭了...只是没为你而哭...
太累了...

CANT Imagine

really cant imagine..
how was it big decision i put in...
never buy anything for myself .. but.. tonight ... spent a so big amount for this..
its for a chance? a dream..? ya dream...
i think its can work.? i just worried time of me.. i suck for arrangement time @@...
it wont a waste.. i think .. because at least you get a thing even you not active in that.

Why im in this?
ok its because someone... never think it .. LOL
at first .. actually not really believe in.. i think that just a promote for his product..
ok , after hear the talk.. obvious im was wrong..
he was the second great  speaker i was meet.. last day my college that eric chong speaker .. i think he was the most great speaker .. anything , let continue the speaker i was meet yesterday..
for sure this is a business talk.. you guy guess how old was he..
he was only 21 years old , but he was great in network and i think in this sosial was much people respect he..
it can seen when he out some guy are follow and something like bring datuk feel ..
no certificate, no work, yes income..
and the datuk vijab was the top(forget how much ) rich in malaysia .. 500 million .. @@....

..ah @@... still cant imagine it...
i will reach my dream in shortly ? i think so? ya.. my dream house! im coming !...
it a nice part time job for me , and everyone will reach the level just different for how long you taking it ..
she said : welcome to Qnet , welcome to our business. em , i should have confident of my decision!

._.

1-7... 两年了.. 下个星期会像去年一样?

真的聊了很多...
真的有点难受看见你们那样... 就像以前的我...
这事其实也算我惹出来的吧...
努力地想补救...
但双方都在避开...一个逃避的好强烈..一个也不理了..只要放下..
明明双方都在乎..明明只是一步棋走错了..为什么搞成这样...

一直都像是听着自己的故事..
说着自己的经历? 当初的自己好像..跟他一样..不..是更糟糕...
经历了...明白那痛... 也不能强迫自己放弃..放不下.. 只要把你放在心上就好了...
也只需装着放下...


男生都喜欢发桥的女生?


那天真的是最后一次? haha..

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曾经到过的地方...


@@.. 说?


感情真好...@@


发桥??@@


双鱼???


累.... 什么都没做....


@@@... 嫉妒心又发作....

:|

现在家人都知道了...
有感动吧 ?听到他们的反应..
不懂...我相信事情没有将容易解决..
主角还是不肯放手? 我真的不知道他在想什么..
为什么要这样做贱自己..也许也不相信我吧..
算了...我已经不懂要怎么说他.. 曾经跟我最亲的人..现在?


其实我很想知道..
如果你也知道那件事..
你的反应会是怎样........

..

design as kid @@...
purple colour is kid colour @@...
izit funny when hear it...
well..i know im suck in creativity.. haha


cant stop ...
once stop ..once relax...
brain is wont listen order..
think and  think ...


actually really tired...
wanna early rest... but.. still worry about assignment.. all need hand up by next week...
hmm... as Mr Vincent said someone is last min only out work as well...xD

Miss everything i miss...